gramps, me, grace, joseph & e 1 above my head, Gideon
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a tribute to my maternal grandpa.
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pleasantly calm day :)

grace came by my place early in the morn at 8.50am to catch Ms Universe with me :) was heaps of fun! haa. happily commented abt most of the girls.
i was rooting for Ms Peru, Puerto Rico, Domanican Republic & Mexico! wow. such hot chics man seriously.

those who left the greatest impressions:
i must say it was extremely surprising dat Ms Indonesia managed to make it into top 15. err well i thot she looked like a trans! =X oops.
Ms Japan has super long legs. she's damn tall & totally doesnt look like a Japo.
Ms Thailand was great. she looked really exotic.
Ms USA... curvaceous & voluptuous r the only 2 words to describe her.
Ms Venezuala, *sigh* disappointed me. looks & height was average, Q&A was *double sighs* even worst. din even finish answering can...
Ms Korea was not bad sia! 1st time! haha.
upsettingly, Ms Singapore din even make it into top 15... heh. sadness.
wah lao... Cheryl Tay can!!! she's like how chio lor... wah lao.. if only i had a quarter of her looks... *dreams*
Ms Norway... eeeeeeeeeeee.... half Thai?! gdness... duno wad sia.. she looks so funny lor..
BUT BUT BUT!!! Ms Universe 2004's Jennifer Hawkins is THE BEST!!! she looks great man. seriously. wow. totally awesome is the phrase to describe her.

ok.. so nuff said abt Ms Universe.
after lunching, Grace headed hm whilst i headed for driving! =)
i shall not be discouraged i say! my instructor was so nice & encouraging.
told me not to gif up. told me stories abt his other students. best part is. the moment he saw me, he said & i quote: *laughs* whilst saying "ni na tian shi bu shi mei you chong liang?!" wah lao eh!!!! so wanted to punch him can!!! (he meant, u dat day is it nvr bathe?)
den he added, u so sway lor kena Foo (my tester). *sigh* i oso noe i so unlucky lo.. heh but oh well it's farkin over! O-V-E-R!!!
next test comin up! pray i'll pass dis time.

so after my ever amusing driving lesson, i took the long bus journey 2 Orchard 2 meet Mr Javern for dinner at Heeren.
walked ard in Heeren & bummed into Hakim dere too! :)
1st time seeing him wifout his beanie. looks so much better. haha. :P
anyway.. so after window shopping, we went to Billy Bombers for dinner.
had a yummy gigantic burger! *slurps*
felt really gluttony at dinner so after eating so much, we had to walk.
walked frm Heeren to Taka to chk out my Madagascar penguins!!! awww they r the cutest man!

was also in search for a grey tank top. but to no avail. heh.
another time i guess.
headed home after.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz............................. :P

Cuzzies Day out... again?!

hahahahahaha!!! (it's called laughing at the title)

spent today out wif grace at Orchard. Acced her for her 2 medical chk-ups!
was quite a short day for me.
met her at tampines & travelled to town together. had lunch at Yoshinoya Cineleisure den walked to Cairnhill for her 1st chk-up.
den walked ard in Heeren for a bit, met Denise mei, took a couple of pics cos we were bored & off to her next chk-up! haa! cheap thrill eh? :P

after her last chk-up we walked over frm Paragon to Taka. had ice cream on a hot hot day when suddenly! some dude approached us to get us to purchase some card for $39.90 for some slimming company. cannot remember if it was jean yip or wad. but it's the Ivy Lee one la..
wah lao. 1st he tinks grace & i need slimming. next! almost wanna punch him lor. say grace & i look like brother & sista, sistas, best frens, duno wad ah. cant make up his mind lor. also! he tinks we're like 22 or 23 can.. wah kao! do we look dat old?! gee! bcos the card can only be sold to ladies 21 & above. Heng ah! i wasnt abt to buy it anywayz....

k ah.. i noe i need the slimming la.. but wah lao.. grace meh?! she'll b invisible if she does can... already so thin...
so ya lor.. so we jus sat & had our ice cream & took pictures! hehehe.
oh!! den we saw!!! Joanne Peh!!!! wow. totally awesome!!! she's so so pretty!!! did some scene at the front of Civic Plaza. Grace managed to catch a shot of her on her camera.
Pro sia! haa! ;) so exciting hor! sit ard & eat ice cream also got things 2 c!

dat's all for 2day on lydia's exciting adventures! haha stay tune for more tmr! :P
pics are uploaded below!

whose?!
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hey hey!
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and they walked by too...
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they walked by...
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siting outside Taka. wonder wad cuzy is amazed abt...?
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at Heeren's Level 1.
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whilst waiting for Grace's turn at the clinic.
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Saturday 28 May 2005

popped by tampines interchange to meet my ol' buddy, Chekkerz! he jus booked out & was ard the hood having lunch so he called me. looking back, i'm glad he did call & i did meet him even tho it was jus for 5mins or so. always gd to catch up & meet an ol' fren ya? :)

so after chatting wif him for a bit, i met Fie.. at tamp int too. so we travelled to P.S to catch Madagascar & have lunch. or at least the poor fella had to eat alone la. haha. so after our business at PS we brisk walked to Cineleisure to meet Cuzy, Qin & Javvy boy. we had ice cream & wedges at that groovy cafe on the 2nd floor.

ice cream was super yummy dere man. cuzy made a gd choice. *winks*
after recharging ourselves we set off in search for Javern's sis's present. smart girl topped her level man. gee... so tough to even get tenth in class. can u imagine she topped her level?! shucks... i can only continue dreaming la huh.. haha =P

so he got her a nice pinky Swatch Flick Flack watch. so pretty. wise choice again thanks to us girls ;) *winks*
happy with the purchase we continued to walk ard Heeren for a lil while more den headed to Taka & Wisma.
Sia la yesterday i tink is shopping day for 2 of us man.
Qin & Javern. but den hor.. Javern ok la.. he rarely shops... Qin on the other hand... *shakes head*
it was pretty fun la accing javern to shop... 3 of us shall be his fashion consultants frm now on. *evil laughter*
aiya javern wont go broke wif us one la considering the fact dat u dun need to be decked in branded clothes to look gd ma... eh so ya lor.. he bought himself a casual blazer/jacket & white shirt.
mmm not bad la. diff look i say. cool cool.

wah shop & wait until quite tired so time to head home after collecting the concert tix frm Lucas.
HOME SWEET HOME to REST & RELAX.
den supper la. haha. Prata!!!! *slurps*

Cuzzies Day Out!

hmmm... let me try and count the number of Cuzzies Day Out we've had so far....
dun seem like i can keep track man... wad abt u cuz? can u keep track? teehee! =P

anywayzzzzzz... so i acced my cuzy to sch to settle her bills & wadever payments for S.U stuff den we met up wif Danielle, Eugene, Ivan A.H Tay & grace's dragon boat frens.. wah so beefy n tann sia.. err ya so anyway... CUTLET ONE!!! weeeeeeeee!!! been craving for it for ages man! we jus had to soak in the sch atmosphere once agn sia.. hee~!
jus as mR told me a few days back, i totally agree wif u man.. overdressed yr1s! gee.. wad were dey tinking? i noe grace & i din dress like dem at least. luckily sia cuz.. :P

so we had lunch at biz park, slacked ard den left sch ard 1+ to go to tm den off to town to meet Denise meiz.. ;)
yesterday's weather was greeaatt! cloudy but not over cast, din rain but was slightly windy.. okok so enough abt the weather.. we walked frm Orchard Mrt to Forum! damn fun sia! along the way we took lotsa pics to make our walking trip more enjoyable! haha.. below i will post the pics.. ;)
so we finally got to Forum, sat at Coffee Bean for a drink & a mud pie den headed to Toys'r'us! again.... took countless pics. can chk out Grace's blog for more pics! kekeke.

after walking ard Forum, we moved on to Heeren. walked ard in Heeren for a bit den off to Centre Point. haha. this is called frm 1 end of Orchard to the other. =P
looking back perhaps the walking was far, long & arduous but the company was divine.

great day spent once again.

oops.
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cuzzies band!!! ;) dat we got frm a shop in Heeren.
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on the escalator...
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in Toys'r'us obviously....
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Destination: Coffee Bean at Forum
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as u can tell they look amazed! by me maybe?
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me & meiz abt to cross to wheelock taken by my lovely cuzy
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On route to Forum beautifully taken by Denise Meizz...
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after CUTLET ONE!!!
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In S.U Lounge.
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a tribute to my loveliest frens!

23 - 25 May 2005
Downtown East Costa Sands Pasir Ris Chalet
Unit no. A1110

organised a chalet for a gathering of frens.
i must say a big thank you to all who came. am so glad u guys did! =)
BBQ dinner wud not have been possible for the 2 nites if not for Greg, my lovely sis, Javern, Herbert, dearest cuzy Grace, her parentals, Lani and my parentals!
and for all those who came to join in the fun, u guys r the best!
am really surprised sir daltz came! ;) thot he wasnt gonna come. think his presence made a difference rite girls?
hmm altho things wud hav been even better if Fie & Pris were here too!
Even tho Denise mei, Danielle and sir daltz din stay for long, jus making a pt to come is jus great. thanks guys! ;)
also, my kids came!! Melvin, JieHan, Eddy, Rachel, Sandy, MeiYun and HuiPing!
these peepz nvr fail to make me smile! love dem all! :) it was a reunion! altho dere were a few still missing...

overall everything was fun. enjoyed every moment spent wif every single one of u.

to my dearest cuzy, thank u for everything. all ur help! love ya!
thanks to qin as well.

surprise of the evening !
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the PTC teens! ;)
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darling frens!
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say cheese!!!!!!! ;) our dearest meimei!
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Thanks to Beefy & Javvy Boy for all their help despite having to serve the Nation..haha :P
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ever helpful sis, dearest cuzy & me!
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the guys at work on the 1st nite of BBQ
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wishing u were here...
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dis is called relax before BBQ dinner...
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Words of Encouragement. For myself.

started off my day with driving in the circuit. made a couple of errors today but not grave ones.
thankfully.
well, i was a wreck today i must say. even up til now.
butterflies fluttering ard & worms gliding ard in my tummy.
a part of me knows i can do this. i may be able to pass.
but the other part of me is thinking, how if i dun pass? how will i react?
i was never so nervous for my exams! y driving?
i'm puzzled.
anyway, it's abt 12 hrs & 25mins til my test.
i'll have to be up early to practice. my instructor is nice enuff to lend me his car all morn to practice.
after practice i headed to meet grace. we went to orchard to collect a receipt from Hyatt den roamed the streets. thankfully i had her for company today cos i duno how better i cud hav spent my day..
ended off our evening with dinner at PS & mass at holy trin.
altho i must admit my attention was not fully focused but i'm sure God heard my prayers.

I pray U'll be our eyes
And watch us when we go
And help us to be wise in times when we dun noe
Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way
Lead us to the place
Guide us with Your grace
To the place where we'll be safe

I pray we'll find out light
And hold it in our hearts
Where stars go out each night
Remind us where we are
Let this be our prayer
When shadows fill our day
Help us find a place
Guide us with Your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe

tune in tmr for updates on my result.
God bless.

Po-tae-toe or Po-ta-toe

hahahahaha... this is the first ever time dat my sis is siting beside me while i blog.
everybody, say 'Hi' to my very un tech savvy sista.

anyways... so ya... *sings* where is my cuzy, she ask me to sing for her.
*lol*

i'm so bored outta my wits rite now.
Poor Fie.. suffering in camp. haii... n dere's nthg i can do to help it.
oh wellz...

yup.. so my sis is eating potato chips now. n it's all the way frm aussie land. coolness huh? ritey on... *winks to Shu*
it's Lynn's favouritez flavour. so pple when u go to aussie land, do purchase a pack of Smith's Crisps Beef with Special Sauce. Proudly endorsed by 'Lynn Chong' the world's most famous potato chip critic.

anyway i like my new n improved blog. *winks*

tune in tmr for more updates.
tata for now!

2 more days!

2 more days to my damn driving test!!! totally freakin out here man!
guys pls pray for me ok... duno y i feelin so nervous la.. but ya.. hope to pass on my 1st try. after all the efforts, time and money dat went into this.
i'll be another female driver on the road... haha. bet all the guys will be like "damn!" haha.
too bad!
haa!

Scared outta my wits!

*SHIVERS*

Gdness.. 4days more & counting to my driving test. am totally freakin out man. dun believe how my instructor is so cool abt it. jus hope everything will go smooth. jus wish to pass on my 1st attempt. god bless me man. haii..

Below are the happenings on 14 May 2005 morning.

a proud winner ;)
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on the fast craft.
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teehee.
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while waiting for the parade to start. chk out our eager faces. =P
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Gold Coast Holiday 1 - 7 May 2005

the pics below are taken from Gold Coast.
wad a memorable trip.
sorry for the late posting.

the waves on Surfer's Paradise. Perfect. err but there r sharks. heard frm the locals dat some1 got bitten a couple of weeks back. no wonder no one was out surfing.
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me & mummy on the plane. dun look at me man. i was bored...
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view frm my rm on the 30th floor.
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dun i jus look like a princess to u? =P
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doughnuts anyone?
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see pple climbing up? can die sia! so steep. was outta breath by the time i got up. =X
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6times zoom to the top of the sand dune where we had to slide down. wind was blowing at 15-20knots or so. abt 6-7 stories high this sand dune is.
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view frm the 20th floor room of the hotel i was staying in.
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the plane dat took us frm Darwin to Brisbane.
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this was on the left hand side of the entrance into Dreamworld. When i saw it, the 1st person i thot of was Qin. :)
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my foot print on the sand
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Patrick & Spongebob!
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a special day

14 May 2005
a beautiful date.
lots happened.
*smilez*

the 1 week i was away...

While Lydia was missing in action in S'pore, this was wad happened to her...
so alrite i was in gold coast for a week. wad happened... 1st n foremost. my flight on qantas was memorable. landed me up in Darwin unexpectedly. well, if i look at the brighter picture, at least i got to land in Darwin & get a cute 'Arrival into Darwin Australia' stamp on my passport. dere after teleporting to Brisbane to get a 'Departure from Brisbane Australia' stamp. haa! groovy.

yup so story as most might already noe... my damn flight got delayed almost a total of 12hrs. an entire nite of waiting, waiting, waiting & waiting. oh well... qantas did try some kinda service recovery by making us wait in Darwin airport's transit lounge for abt 4-5hrs while giving us a free cup of drink n sandwiches while trying to arrange for us to be brought into town to a hotel to hav breakfast while they get the technicians to fix the damn airbus. gdness. such a new plane wif so many problems. wtf man.

so abt 8+am we managed to get our asses outta e airport & waited to clear customs, collect baggage & wait for cab den headed to Novotel Hotel in the city. we were given a rm per couple or family. so made a call back to my sista to inform her of our exciting plane ride which almost gave her a heart attack. *LOL*
so we had breakfast den went up to our rms for another 15mins n had to go back to the airport agn. so we queued & we waited AGAIN to check in our bags & get our new boarding passes.

again, back into the damn transit lounge where we were in the wee hrs of the morning to wait for the plane to be ready. beat dis. we were supposed to be back at Darwin airport by 11am because the plane is expected to take off at 1130. RIGHT........... the queue was never ending la. when everyone finally got into the transit lounge, it was already 12+ coming 1pm. best part is, we werent even gonna take our qantas plane. we were given Australian Air. frm a 2-4-2 seater to a 2-3-2 seater. no business class & no personal screens. u can jus imagine how i survived my 4+hrs journey frm Darwin to Brisbane.

so anyway... as long as they kept me fed i was fine. *LOL* :P so slp n eat the whole way thru lor. bo bianz...

FINALLY! Destination BRISBANE! tears of joy but mostly sadness filled my eyes as the mere thot dat my dearest cuzy will be where i was at dat moment in jus a couple of mths time really made me feel shity. *sigh*
i took the opportunity to take plenty of pics of the airport for her. so again a long n arduous journey to Gold Coast. it was already pitch dark when we reached Brisbane. the ride to GC took an hr+. not dat scenic a drive up. so dark. =(
so finally our hotel. gdness gracious me. jus downstairs is Centro Shopping Centre which is pretty cool as it leads to other shops & the beach!!!! Surfer's Paradise! woohoo! nice view la. but din take as much of my breath away as compared to Dreamland in Bali.
but anyway it's a whole diff experience altogether. also, the wind and the sand is lovely. so fine n soft. was complaining to my dad abt the crappy sand back in spore. eeekkss! so rough n coarse. :(

oh well.. so places i visited... Moreton Island, which houses Tangalooma Wild Dolphin Resort, Movie World, Dream World, Harbor Town Mall, Pacific Fair & mostly buildings in Surfer's Paradise. Went on a Duck tour wif my parents too! pretty ex sia. $32 per adult. but parentals wanna go so go lor...

yup so dat's abt it for my aussie trip. any questions jus tag me.
oh ya. i attempted to call Pris frm Brisbane. Damn calls r so ex sia. 40cents is the minimum to put in n u can only talk for like wad.. 10secs?! gee... so e 1st time i called her i only spoke to her for abt 10secs. haa. the next time smarter abit n had more coins so talk slightly longer... say abt 1min+ rite boobies? :P
miss ya babe! take care of urself over dere k! muacks!

new found sport?

ok here goes me again with all my random thots.. so haa! bear wif me eh! ;)

last sunday went 9.30am morn mass wif Grace cuzy, her mum n dad. den ltr on steamboat buffet lunch wif cousin Junior at Coca Taka. *slurps* the tom yum so super super ultra yummy delicious man!

so after lunch, i headed to marine parade CC to hav a game of badminton. improving i say. haha. managed to learn new stuff frm Shu. Pro sia she! so yup i finally get to catch up wif Shu. even tho she was only back for a week. hurry back agn k! dis time i shall prepare my list of stuff for u to help me get! *evil chuckles* ;X
after badminton we slacked ard a while den headed hm den out to hav dinner wif my parentals den came back hm den went wif my sis to send Shu to parkway den i acced my sis for her dinner den headed back hm agn. super eventful sia!
best part is there was a wedding goin on at my void deck! :) n someone is back! heh wad an odd way to bum into each other sia... geezzz :P

den came Mon. hmm...wad did i do on mon?... driving! heh. suck man. jus one week away frm the wheel n dat's it. rusty. tink hor female drivers... *shakes head* no wait. tink hor lydia dis driver hor... *shakes head* cannot make it. heh. test is next fri! WTF! better shape up man. tsktsktsk. so my mon was spent bumming ard.. nthg extremely exciting happened.

den came Tues. no driving today but went out. Greg's bday! jus spent the entire day out. tired but the company was gd all day. oh. suddenly i recall of some ass hole dat pissed me off. but nvm! *sings* peace is all ard me! *deep breaths* forget abt it n him. aint worth it. the pple in my life now r a gazillion times more impt. :)
yup so tues was pretty eventful eventho it rained.

now Wed. today. had driving. *sigh* again. sucked. duno wad's wrong wif me sia. i noe. it's called psycho-motor problem. heh. haii... 9 more days til dooms day!!! damn. wish me luck man guys. seriously a wreck rite now.

Greetings!

Greetings Earthlings! (",)

guess who's back!!!! :P hahaha...
m glad to be back to the sunny island of S'pore altho the heat is killing me... heh
oh wellz.. at least all my favourite pple r here! ;)

hope u all had a wonderful & peaceful week here wifout me eh? ;P

M.I.A for a week

*WAVES*

Hey everyone! i'll be away for a week... so dun miss me too much yea? hopefully will take plentyful pics n show u all when i get back!
i noe i'll miss all of u even tho it's jus one damn week. haa!
so anyhow. have fun & enjoy ur week ahead! pls tk gd care & b gd.
God bless u all!

*love hugs & kisses *

WANTON MEE!!!

THE HIGHLIGHT OF TODAY :
1. WANTON MEE
2. ICE CREAM

*SLURPS* great food great company. today's my 1st time interacting wif Danny. A charming gentleman i must say. am glad my cuzy 'you yan guang' *cuzy: WINKS* so 1pm, headed over to Grace's place where Danny came pick us up. frm there headed to airport T2 to have our long awaited WANTON MEE!!!
*sigh* some mimixiaojiji didnt wake up... left me ALL ALONE wif danny n grace... geee...
i survived anyways.
so ya.. after a fulfilling lunch we went to walk ard a lil, popped by to say hi to uncle jimmy den scooted off to Serangoon Gardens to have ICE CREAM! lovely i say simply LOVELY! gd intro dere by Danny. can tell my cuzy was feelin pretty full after dat eh. but the ice cream was great tink i'll go dere someday when i pass my driving. super ulu dere man...
after ice cream we had time to kill b4 cuz n danny were off to catch their movie at tm so danny suggested we follow him to send his fren's AMAZINGLY GORGEOUS AUDI HIGH PERFORMANCE 1.8 TURBO CHARGED CAR! *faints* the sound of the car speeding is jus like those heard in 2 Fast 2 Furious u noe.. wow... usually can only hear when ure standing by a road den some Evo or WRX zooms past u dat sorta scenario.. but today hor is ultimate experience. k la, next to siting in my uncle's RX8. but it's 2 diff experiences la of cos.

finish "dropping" the Audi off, we went back to get Danny's car & finally headed back hm. i headed hm la dat is. danny & grace went to tm to catch a movie.

c la mR... the gd stuff u missed out today...

not a grt way to have ended my fun day

i jus got hm abt half an hr (now is 9.50pm) currently still in a lil shock i guess.
witnessed an accident jus a few metres frm me. thank god i din hav to see it face to face, it happened behind me but as soon as i heard skidding tyres & an awfully loud crash, i turned ard & saw a middle-aged man 'flew' across the junction onto the grass patch beside me. there were many passers-by & pedestrians. it was really scary. as soon as he landed on the grass his helmet came off n dere was blood all over his face & legs. one of the pedestrians quickly called the police or ambulance dat i'm not sure all i noe was dat i din really noe wad i shud do. after a slow reaction of abt 5 mins, i decided to turn back n head hm as there were more n more pple crowding round. the taxi's front bonnet was smashed pretty badly & needless to say, the motorcyclist's motorcycle was thrashed & mangled. there were parts of both vehicles all over the roads. really scary. my stomach feels crazy even up till now. cud i hav reacted better?
as soon as i turned my back to walk hm, i prayed. i really hope dat god will watch over the motorcyclist. it was really quite a distance dat he flew. skidded across the road, continued rolling & finally landed himself on the grass. i really wish him well.

i started off my day catching a movie wif ivan.. 'guess who'. duno if it's jus me or him but his company was awfully boring today. not sure y also... anyway so we were suppose to hav lunch together aft the movie, so we went to the food court where he wanted to eat n only after we got there he decided to tell me he wasnt gonna eat! damn. if so, he shud hav told me earlier.. but no. haii... i cud hav met grace earlier or cud hav suggested smthg i wanted to eat other den at the food court. but anyhow i decided not to make a fuss out of it n jus settle to eat dere cos i was starving.

so after my lunch, i met grace at tamp mrt. took the long ride to orchard den walked to pacific plaza to wait for a cab to get to the IDP office where grace had to settle her UQ stuff.. took only a while den we headed off to cineleisure to sing! haa. 'K Box' was really fun. we sang for abt 3hrs15mins! my gdness. longest every record for me i tink. it's only my 3rd visit anyway... so while we were singing MR called! he's back! *sings* guess who's back... back again! haa.

WELCOME BACK mR!!

so we were also kinda waiting for Danny to call but he hasnt. perhaps havent reach? *shrugs* jus hopes grace can hear frm him at least noe he's safe n back. at least i'm glad to noe MR is safe n back.

after our singing session we walked over to Heeren for a bit to jus update myself. there after heading on to PS to have a wonderfully fulfilling dinner wif grace @ the food court. Spicy 'Yu pian mi fen' it was grt, lovely, splendid, wonderful, yummy, delicious. u guys shud try it some day! we ate till we were both really full n cud fall on our bellies. so we walked ard PS.. until the fullness eased off a little b4 heading back hm. so once again... the mrt ride back hm... long & arduous journey. ya n after dat, the walking hm bit for me was as mentioned above.

Misunderstood

from yesterday evening 5pm til today, right here right now as i m posting dis entry, my sis & i hav been raging a cold war.
This sucks. but i guess i'll have to live thru dis.
did i screw up again? m i always wrong? y cant i do smthg gd & right for a change?
y m i always the laughing stock of others? y cant pple respect me for a change?
i do admit i enjoy doing things within my means to make others happy. n i do realise that others do dat for me too. but how much is too much?
can i handle all this pressure? when will i cave in? or has it already happened? i'm not too sure.
i noe my conscience is clear & i do not harbour any ill/bad thots/intentions. i jus wanted to help? hav i helped too much? did i cross the line? seems like i have. shud i nvr bother agn den? my only sister... how can dis happen, y me? y like dis?

Melt Down

THE GREAT MELTDOWN
current song playing:

Love In The 1st Degree
*winks cuz*

HAVE NO IDEA WHY THE WEATHER'S BEEN SO HOT OF LATE.
STAYING IN AN AIR-CONDITIONED RM SEEMS TO BE THE ONLY ESCAPE.
SOMEHOW DONT EVEN DARE TO BE TANNING OR STEP TO THE GREAT OUTDOORS. I LOVE THE SUN, NO DOUBT, BUT THIS IS A LIL TOO MUCH FOR ME TO HANDLE MAN. *eeeekss!*

anyway my pt at the end of it all is....
pls drink more water ya? always keep the internal cool & well hydrated.
also, dun forget to keep the tempers cool too cos when the weather's hot, it kinda gets to everyone's heads ya? :p
yup. so chill out *somehow* & enjoy wadever u guys r doing!
peace be wif each and every one of u! ;)
*sings* peace is all ard me

happy and sad

hmmm... more additions to my sadness.... 2 very impt pple in my life is leaving to go overseas to study... Grace and Arun.

Good for u cuz! u made it! god bless u in ur endeavours babe! i'm sure u can do it! =) u'll b back soon b4 u noe it k! ;) i'm sure all of us back here will be praying for ur safety, courage & wisdom. but u urself must b determined k! :)
Arun.. my buddy... he's not only going overseas to study.. he would also be migrating to India next yr. this really sucks. everyone's jus leaving. But no matter wad, i wish him well.

well, MR shud b enjoying himself in Bangkok now! woohoo! all e shopping & food! :P heh cuz dun u wish we were dere too? all the tom yum & thai iced tea... gosh............ yummy yummy yummy i got love in my tummy! :P
hmmm current craving for teppanyaki! cuzy! when?? tag me!

today's a sat n i'm at hm... dun really feel like going out... so bloody hot. mayb at nite wif sista la.. for coffee or wad dat is if it aint too hot... :P

oh okie.. now updates on wad exciting Lydia did last nite!
*Recalling* Uploading from Lydia's mind at 1kb/s...
well, my wondeful & eventful Friday started off with my mum & i heading down to Kimage to meet Grace to have a hair cut! End product, we were all well pleased! ;) odd sia... it's been a long time since i've had short fringe... guess now no sch so can afford the fringe on the face look eh? ;P
thereafter mum & i headed to Grace's house for a fulfilling lunch! wow.. yummy stuff man. cuz.. u need to take cooking lessons from Lani man... tsktsktsk.. =X

after lunch i had to scoot off to driving! this is the killer part. haii.. jus like every other driving lesson, n being like any other FEMALE driver.. I SUCK! so horrifying! esp when u meet ass hole drivers dat swerve n cut ur lane even when ure nearing. ungentlemanly ass holes i say! they deserved to get punched! my 1st time swearing in the damn car in front of my instructor ok.. spoil my mkt only that ass hole. tell u... if i ever meet him again... dat's it! hmph! all those heavy vehicles.. tonner trucks, lorries, vans, pick-ups! driving me crazy man! somemore we went on Route 6! killer i say! all the way to Jln Eunos & U-turn back to the driving centre. my heart can stop beating when i'm on dat road sia.. totally different feeling. taxis & cars all at high speeds even tho it's only 2+pm & the traffic is so damn bloody heavy. duno where the hell everyone is rushing to lor.apparently the damn "L" plate isnt dat obvious in their faces that they have to drive so fast & not give way to me. come on lor. wadever happened to graciousness & courtesy sia! *annoyed & exasperated* anyway... so ya.. praying hard n crossing my fingers dat i wont have to go on Route 6 for my test.

okie so 1 and a half hrs hav passed. moving on...
met Grace my darling at Eunos mrt n headed to ICA building to update her passport pic! awww.. u guys shud c my cuzy when she was young.... well, FYI, Grace had to change her passport pic bcos.... 1stly, *wails* she's going away... 2ndly.... *LMAO* immigration officers told her the pic too long ago liao... time for a change cos someone "zhang da le" (grow up already) so cannot use 'younger day's' pic.... tsktsktsk cuz.... dun worry la u aint dat old... only 20yrs n 45days old only la.. so no worries! long way ahead ya! ;) n u can continue to deny urself of ur age... no problem at all... =X so ya.. i accompanied her to change her photo n dat took like 10mins tops. after dat we headed to Orchard, Crown Prince Hotel's Swensens to indulge in some ice cream cos the weather was a killer... went on to walk ard in Paragon where Qin met us. so we stayed dere til Nic met us *chuckles* for dinner. we dined at Thai Express! den soon came Ralph, Grace's fren. nice soft spoken guy.. seems nice duno y my cuz so picky. but anyway.. so ya.. he came we left to Holland V!!

Wala Bar... my gdness! Fun begins here. Qin & Nic left so Grace n i went up to try to find a seat 1st. Jus when we thot we were there pretty early. dere were pple who were dere earlier sia! o_O
so freakin crowded! so cuzy n i faster queued n got our asses in. so we went up. oh ya did i forget to mention our *ahem* Orange Menthol Flavoured Ciggies?! nice i say! :P *chuckles* so ya.. we were upstairs, quite a few 'harlow deres' la but nah... wasnt in the mood to chk out anyone so ya... cuzy decided we shud go stand in a corner n wait for the band to come on. Just then! *aha!* dere was a grp of old men k la.. matured men who were at 2 tables at a nice cozy corner where Grace n i were standing... so they offered their seats to me & grace... so kind of dem... soon after Ralph came to join us frm his dinner along wif 2 other frens. hmm.. all nice pple la. at least not dat kind shy shy cannot talk. so quite gd la. but so paiseh to show dem the smoking side of me. not very nice la i tink. oh wellz.. *shrugs*

from Wala, we left at 11.45pm thereabouts n headed to 85 for some bak chor mee! hee! cuzy was hungry. supper supper! i had chicken wings! wow they were lovely! so i headed hm abt 1+... totally shagged... heh lousy sia... =X haa!
yup so anyhow that was how my Friday went! ;)

the happenings...

A NEW POPE!
first, as at s'pore time abt 1+am, 20th April 2005, a new pope was elected. Pope Benedict XVI, aka, Joseph Ratzinger.. a bishop frm Germany. a very learned man who has been assisting the late John Paul II for over 20 yrs. congratulations to him, may the good Lord bless n watch over him & may he lead God's pple in peace, love & harmony.

WHAT'S GOING ON?
I need some serious help or some kinda sign to help me understand. y dis internal struggle? y dis complication? y dis mess? y me? y cant i solve it? y cant i b less problemtic 2 others? fuck. i hate how i feel.
what can i do? what shud i do? what shud i say? who can help me? questions questions questions! i need to tink straight.
i dont know if i need to be in love. i dont know if i can trust & how to do it. cant i be taught? cant he b patient? all i need is time & guidance. is dat so much to ask for? i believe dat wad will b urs will b urs eventually. i also believe dat gd things will come to those who wait.
fate? wad is fate? how does one define fate? jus bcos of 1 mere incident dat decides we're not fated. wow, how superficial is dat? how abt all the other times we do meet or dat have been spent, those arent so called fated? meeting one another, crossing paths, not fated either? when i was upset & crying, i wonder who was the one who called me out of a sudden? like as if he knew dat i was in some kind of trouble... i'm sure dat's not fate either.
i believe i'm not the only person in the game of love who has been hurt b4.. i know many others who might have even suffered a worst fate den me. but well, every individual has different tolerance levels. every gd or bad situation always has smthg we can gain frm. experience. learning issues. things we know n hope will never happen again. but we can only prevent. how do we know for sure things will or will not work out? how do we know how to help one another if we dont even talk? dont even learn to discuss issues openly, objectively & calmly?
i really dont know... all these are jus random thots running thru my mind. collectively, i'm optimistic. i always hope for the best & pray for a direction. every decision & choice has a risk involved, be it gd or bad. we can always try to look at the bigger picture. but den again, as i said, how can one ensure absolutely no mistakes?
some tink the problems they face r big & troublesome & they dread it, try to avoid. some tink nthg of their problems & jus enjoy n tink of fun. whereas, some others tink abt their problems n try to face up to it n tink of solutions. i dun like running away from problems. jus as how i have to face the S$450. i'll face my other problems the same. take a deep breath n say "come on! let's do it" isnt simple i know but dat's jus me, i'll do it.
when u need me, i'll b here.. when ever, where ever.
jus dun wish to be left hanging not knowing wad's going on in the mind & heart of urs.
it's been a long time since i last worried so much abt someone. tink that is pretty significant already huh.. but who cares anyway? all my life, most of my actions or intentions r always doubted. oh well, perhaps i'm jus destined to live dis sorta life. hopefully, 1 day truly, some one wud b kind n patient enough to teach me.

i want peace like a river...

P E A C E = S H A L O M
where is the love? MR... for heaven's sake... pls be nicer to grace... after all dat she's done for u.... n after all dat the both of u have been thru.... dun u tink she deserves better den dat? come on....
qin n grace hav been fighting wif MR the whole nite now.. i'm exasperated... nthg left to say... been trying to calm MR's nerves for a long time now... seems like a hand full man... sheesh...

started the day at sch wif money issues which were pressing.. felt pretty pressured somehow.. din like it but guess it's a responsibility & jus hav to face it.
$450... how m i to settle dat? need to find a job desperately... need to save money... all my SIP money is GONE. m down to pennies now... sucks

after meeting.. lunch. den headed down to SIM.. wad along n arduous journey... but luckily i had MR & Grace! ;) den met up wif lucas at SIM where he was also gonna apply for a course... he applied for UOL whereas i applied for RMIT.. tink this program suits me better... 1 yr exemption somemore! weee!!! such joy! haa! cant wait to go to melbourne too! can get to c my boobies!!!! ;) she promised a personalised tour ard too! *ahem* :P

yup.. so after i finished my application i had to head hm for dinner... a day ended jus like dat.... heh... tiring but pretty fruitful i guess... nthg ventured nthg gained

the rise and fall

current song playing: shape of my heart

how do i feel rite now i'm not too sure.. i jus know everything sucks. n i dun like feeling dis way. but i guess i dun hav much of a choice. jus suck it up n take it.

I live my life in chains got my hands in chains
and I can't stick with the cards that I got with a deal like this
I must insist a girls got more to do then be the way you think a woman should
I'm taking it into my hands
In this mans land I cant understand why I'm taking command
I've had enough of stuff and now it's time to think about me, me yea
and you can easily gamble your life away second after secondand day by day
you play the game or you walk away it's a new turn on a blue day
and a cool deal of life for me and it's all good

I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
but that's not the shape of my heart

I've always played it safe nothings ever safe give me the courage to back my own convictions
every decision I make I pay it back and more now turn the cards and let them fall to me I don't need to play on with the hand that they have given me
I give it back coz it's not the way it has to be

..:state of confusion:..

i've got so many things running thru & ard in my mind dat it feels claustrophobic already...
guess i hav certain issues that i need to settle within myself dat i feel perhaps God is the only being that is able to help me thru this mess.
sometimes i wonder wad's wrong with me or wad hav i done to be in this position..
i know i am blessed for the many pple in my life who hav always been supporting, loving, caring & understanding me all this time. Also, the experiences both gd & bad dat i hav gained during the past 3 yrs is beyond description. i feel i have grown & matured in certain ways... but of cos dere's still much more for me out dere to explore..

God will make a way when there seems to be no way.

anyway Fie is in R.O.C now.. i wish him well.

yup read my title... dat's how i feel. oh well...

....B.O.R.I.N.G.....

downloading songs.. listening to songs, watching the OC, checking my email, chatting on MSN.. seems like the way i past my time of late... haha! but i'm quite enjoying it la. the comfort of doing 'nothing'. =P
well i've come to realise that problems & worries do not end when school ends. nope! no such thing. =)
i've still got the damn gown problem to worry abt! called the bridal shop up today to chk status. apparently Shenice (the girl i rented e gown frm) says dat she has been chasing Hyatt for the compensation. Damn shit man Hyatt. they suck at service recovery. bet grace & i wud do a better job anytime man! ass holes 1 by 1...
also... e DnD matters... MR & Grace, hang in dere k! wadever it is we're in dis together.. so yup. errr let me try dis.. *in chinese* 'tuan jie jiu shi li liang' k! so we'll all pull thru dis together!
i need a job, i need to work, i need to earn money, i gotta stop spending, i gotta save money, i gotta find a uni.... oh so many thots i say! *mind boggling*

anyway... i need to run an errand for Fir... get his ziplock bags for him... but damn it. wed it was close! so i went back earlier today, still closed. den when i passed it at 2pm it was open! shit! damn not fated la! haii... nonetheless i shall go back agn tmr... damn hot day n i'm feelin really lathargic.. think it's the heat dat's getting to me.. sorry guys, excuse my french. i need to find a job!!!! anyone got anything for me? pls let me noe ya?

so yes, lydia's been bumming.. new record i must say, i havent seen my cuzy in 3+ days til yesterday! woohoo! feels weird somehow... haa! :p so anyway MR & Grace were over at my place yesterday... bonding time i say! =) well i had fun eventho i was really worn out.. sis says she & MR like machiam "ho peng yu" wuahahaha... wad to do.... lao beng n lao lian hit it off ma... =X

..... so yup.. tmr is friday. Fir is comin out.. gonna b leavin on a jet plane soon... for that we shall pray for world peace & safety! ;)

i wish all of u peace & love.

Another long day...

Wonderful things happened on saturday 09 April 2005...
as i slept at 4am.. woke up at 9+, made my way down to Hyatt n reached at 11.50am.
the damn duty ass hole manager MR KENNY YEO didnt call me as he promised! LIAR! super pissed off! but nonetheless, i tried calling n all dat.. went to far east to Jack Tailoring to try to salvage my gown but to no avail.

Cuz, MR, I'm so sorry i wasted ur sat noon when u both cud b at hm resting frm an eventful nite but dere u both were waiting for me to settle my bullshit problems.
*sigh* sucky sucky day initially.. had to wait for the bell boy to send my gown down to the bridal shop at tanjung pagar.. damnit lor. like as if tanjung pagar is 10,000 miles away frm town... took so bloody long! i even had time to nap! shit.
anyway so eventually my damn gown reached & let the bridal shop pple access the situation... the compensation wud cost at least $300. technically it's alrite. i was expecting $1000.. but thank god it wasnt so. after many many calls, the Asst. Director of F&B frm Hyatt, Mr Ben Perera, with a SINGLE phone call which lasted less den A MINUTE, said "no problem, i'll handle Mr Kenny Ass Yeo & pay for the compensation."
OF COS THEY SHUD! i'm only a student.... =( k la.. but it was partly my fault & bad luck too... *sigh*
jus hopefully in the next couple of days things will be more confirmed & i'll get my $200 back frm the bridal shop. was really worried abt the whole situation. But then again, Thanks Cuz and MR.. Thanks for being there for me. Really appreciate it.

After being at Tanjung Pagar for abt 4hrs, we left, i went to meet Fie. Spend some time wif him b4 he goes off.. hope his trip wud go well & return safe.

My 1st D&D

08 April 2005
Grand Hyatt Hotel, Grand Ballroon
Temasek Polytechnic's Dinner & Dance

Grace approached me last yr during my late grandpa's bday party & asked me to join her committee to help organise TP's D&D 2005.
Initially I was shocked dat me, a non SU person cud help her out.. but she was like "can la.." so okie lor.. i decided to help my cuzy! after all i aint got nthg to loose, on the flip side, i gained so much more!
if grace din ask me, n if i din agree, i wudnt hav met all e lovely pple on the committee! these pple hav been really fun to work with & i'm jus really glad to know dem! Thanks cuz for everything! :) and for the chance of working wif u on a project at 1 pt in time of our lives.

08 April 2005 was a hectic & quite emotional day. Everyone was physically & mentally drained from the whole planning of the event. Planning process may not have been the smoothest but i'm sure we'll all work together to figure smthg out! ;) poor grace she was the busiest but i seriously tink she handled the flow well.. not sure who cud hav done a better job.. it was really fun & i tink arun & khai made a gd pair for the emcee part. damn funny sia! laugh until full! haha.. prom king prom queen segment on the other hand......... hmmmmmmm.... yea.. ivan won... err... i wasnt surprised la i guess... duno how come he so lucky girl fan base so wide.... wonder how dat feels man.... oh well... i can only wonder... :P
Alvin, Khai & Eric were dressed in their costumes, really groovy man! MR, Kaisheng, Darren, Fuad, Weijian & Eric on the other hand were in suits..
MR .. u look fine in the suit ok... ;)

Needless to say... all the girls looked stunning! =)
cuz ... ur hair was beautiful & over all, u were fabulous! any postive adjectives cud b used on u on fri nite ;)

Well.... here comes the depressing part... my fuckin gown was torn bcos it got stuck in the damn escalator. haii.. really sway.. my 1st time wearin a gown... my 1st time attending a D&D n dis has to happen.. oh well.. but was really thankful for MR & Claudia! they were dere to distract me & help me feel better. Don't know how else I wud hav reacted if they werent ard esp MR. yup.. so thank u, really.

Everthing ended slightly before 1.. so we went back to our rooms to change & i got ready to leave. left the hotel to pick ivan frm Gallery Hotel at 1.30 den headed home.. this marked the end of my very eventful night.

I got a Tag Board!!!

YAY!!! FINALLY i've got my tag board! thanks to Qin-a-ling!
u rock girl! thank u so much!
so anyone feel free to msg me! it's so fun! haa! =P

my reflection...

LUNCH TIME!!!
is anybody eating? suddenly i miss someone very much... *winks*

ok... i need help! anybody knows how to add a tag board to my damn blog?? pls let me noe on msn or wad.. thanks!

next pt. i was jus wondering... how far can frens go? and how to draw a line between frens & boyfren? wad i mean is... how can u hav a crush on ur buddy? it's so weird! esp if SHE is older den him... it's jus so totally gross to me.. best part is its been hidden! feelings hav been hidden for so long! how?
well.. sometimes the person u love the most may not love u as much. the price to pay is great. but like i believe, every choice & decision in life requires risks.
i used to think that Love makes the world go round. however i m not so foolish anymore.. wake up smell the coffee & realise, i must b practical & realistic! ok ya.. it is possible to love ur other half, frens & family but can love buy u food? can love buy u our basic neccessaties? oh well.. guess not.

however! love is still impt somehow since my last relationship i have grown cautious & skeptical. really hope i can find someone who wud love me someday... somehow...

damn! i sound so sappy! but no matter cos i'm happy wif the way my life is rite now! yup! so if u need some joy in ur life.... *errhmmm* i'm here! ;)

The Loss of One of The World's Greatest Man

I must say I was pretty affected by the Pope's passing on. I feel it is a loss to humanity. Really pray the next Pope would carry on Pope John Paul II's great legacy and love for the church and God's creation.
Although I have only been a Catholic for 4 years now, I've been brought up in a Catholic environment since I was 6. And ever since I can remember, the Pope has done so much for the world. Always striving for world peace and good inter-religious relationships and ties. Yesterday before I attended mass, I was watching CNA show case news about the late Pope and his missions. Not only did he travel around the world to visit the poor and sick. He also came to celebrate mass in S'pore back in Nov 1986. Such a small island could attain a visit from the Pope! The Pope's actions clearly displays his enthusiasm, zeal and love for God and his people. I was moved to tears as I watched. The late Pope, I pray for God's mercy and may he be in heaven with God in glory and may perpetual light shine upon him.

Fudge anyone? ;) my sis brought some hm for me....
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guess who's back!

my sis is back!!! yeeppeeee!!!! =)
now i wont be all alone in my room anymore! haa!
she bought super a lot of treats back from Sydney!
all her pics look really great! tink i'll hav to visit that city really soon for myself!
have always wanted to visit Melbourne & Sydney for a couple of years now..
will be going to Brisbane & Gold Coast soon tho ;) lookin forward to that!
anybody wanna c pics of Sydney... pls let me noe.

And the winner of Ms S'pore Universe Is.......

Happening!!!! Ms Cheryl Tay!!!! she is so so hot & so so smart!
she looks great on tv & in person! (not dat i was up close & personal wif her..)
great charisma, great attitude! i like! too bad i aint a guy... *wasted*
well.. i went to Mediacorp studios wif grace & qin to support Ms Jacqueline Ong (Grace's dad's side cousin) cos she was 1 of the contestents... she looks great la.. hot bod & all.. but unfortunately she din quite make it in the end...
the person i was rooting for was Rebecca Lim! wah lao.. wasted sia... her answers r damn crappy!!! such a pretty face but.... haiiizzzz
Jeannie Fong also. super sweet face.. very endearing.. BUT....
However Grace, qin n i had fun i suppose... checkin out guys wif roving eyes, commenting on the other contestents like machiam we damn chio ourselves... haha! :P
but seriously... Cheryl Tay deserves to win! so happy for her altho she din look exactly surprised dat she was gonna win... unlike those other cliche type girls..
went out in the day wif my boo! dat guy ah... tink i superwoman can! 1hr shower & rush down to pasir ris to meet him... heh when i was dere he wasnt even dere! :p but it's ok... after seeing him made things better... haa! we went to bugis for lunch at.. Banquet in Raffles Hospital.. it was a rainy day! speaking of rainy day! damn! i'm such a white chicken la.. supposed to go tanning wif grace in e morn... to no avail cos it was raining!!! geee...
so as i was saying.. after lunch.. we walked to bugis junction for a bit.. den headed back to tamp to have ice cream at swensens! banana split! yum! ;P
the company was better den the ice cream of cos... after which we headed back hm where we bummed into qin n grace on their way to my place..
after i got hm n changed, we left for PS to meet Jav & Herbz.. bummed into George.. wah damn long nvr see him... guess he still looks the same.. :)
so after catching up wif e guys for a bit we left PS to go Caldecott Hill.. err long journey but was gd experience i must say... haha! =)

A dreary & relatively unexciting day...

Current mood: So sleepy!!!!! *yawnzzz*

today has been quite a long day... finally it's nite time & finally heard frm my boo! :P he's back frm outfield... back to the sunny island of tekong! haha.. poor him la..
newaez smthg 2 look forward.. will get to see him tmr! ;)
my day started with driving at 1230-1400.. damn stalled the farkin car again!!! yuck. hate it. oh well.. i m a female driver n i suck dat i admit. jus dun need pple 2 b laughin in my face bout it.. :(
wellzz.. after drivin i went to meet my mummy at tamp int to go to tm for lunch & gai gai..
finally bought a pair of converse shoes! err.. duno wad look i tryin to achieve la.. but jus thot it's not dat ex & it saves me the trouble of travellin to queensway to look for another pair of sneaks.. :P haha lazy me.. yup.. so it's the ol' sch type of canvas shoes.. white colour wif red & navy blue lines! woohoo! damn nice la! to me at least! can use it durin' my trip.. had coffee with qin & jon.. wah lao.. it's been a while since i last spoke to jon.. finally managed to c him & spend some time wif e ol' bud! ;) had dinner wif my parents aft qin & jon left at tm food court.. yummy hokkien mee!!!! my fav! haha! =P wad a pig...
currently waiting for greg to come pick me to go check out fellow Hyundai cars! car forum!! woohoo! super fun!
anywayz.. yay! my jiejie is comin back soon!! =) a couple more days! yay! my room wudnt b so lonely & quiet anymore soon!

Mingrern.... qi chuang le.... presenting... Mr Grumps!
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